Lifting my sails~: “Christ of his gentleness/Thirsting & hungering/Walked in the wilderness/Soft words of grace he spoke/Unto lost desert-folk/That listened wondering".

By the way, i know for me that resolutions made, crumble and fall for year, every year.
Blah.

God's doin' a lot of amazing work with our bible study, our friend Kirsten had mentioned what her church was doing and instead of lists of breakable resolutions,

we focus on One Word.

myoneword.org
Choose Your Word
The normal, natural pace of you life will not likely push you towards spiritual formation, so something must be done to combat our listless drifting. You will not simply wander into the life for which you were made.
My One Word can help. This exercise forces you to be clear and creates a direction for your growth, without causing you to be overwhelmed by the hundreds of things you should be working on.
So how do you go about picking a word?
DETERMINE THE KIND OF PERSON YOU WANT TO BECOME
The first step is to simply take some time and decide what kind of person you want to be at the end of this year. This goes beyond simply being healthier and wealthier, but it must drive deep into your soul. What about the condition of your heart? What about the person that God Himself has created you to be?
IDENTIFY THE CHARACTERISTICS OF THAT PERSON
Get a picture of that person and then simply identify their major characteristics.
Is that person gentle?
Is that person generous?
What are the qualities of the person you want to become?
SIMPLY PICK A WORD
Once you have a list of the characteristics, simply pick a word. There might be fifteen things that you want to change, but you must resist the temptation to promise you will do them all. Instead, simply commit to ONE WORD.
This will provide you with a lens to see the changes you need to make as well as a way to determine whether or not change is actually happening. Understand that this process is hard, but staying focused on your word will help you to struggle in the right direction so that you can actually see God working in your life.
We will be sharing this journey together-let us know how God is changing you by sharing your one word, and reading about the experiences of others on the read page. This is a journey that we are taking together, hoping that God will change us for the sake of ourselves, the other people in our lives, and ultimately for His own Glory.

My word is:
Gentleness

Upon praying and first hearing this word, I was like "whhaaaa??"
Fear was my first initial feeling, associating Gentleness with weak, being a push-over or door-mat. So I brought this fear to God and Lord confirmed "You're still strong by being gentle, by being assertive, you're still strong and courageous by being who you are in gentleness. You will not be walked over".
Whew. My heart breathed sigh of relief. As you may have read in one before this entry, God's exposing weaknesses within my heart that I am to give to him and areas in my heart to do with attention and standing up for myself.. need turning over to God and adjusting.

Lord promises me that He's bringing me balance, in this dance He's bringing me back to my center-point, somewhere to start off from.. if working this gentle word into my life is it, then.. bring it.

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control." (Galatians 5:22)

I know the Lord is intentional with His written word. To learn His intentions for the fruits of the Spirit, His words sow life, I want to reap what I can get.

"Sometimes your entire life boils down to one insane move." - Jake Sully, Avatar
And sometimes, Gentleness really is jus an insane move.